i don't think there's anything wrong with the fact that i'm an obsessive. but sometimes i'm frustrated because i feel like i can't be obsessed enough. not in the "fake fan" way (though it annoys me when people try to hang things i don't know over my head). it's more that i feel like my obsessive nature gives me so much energy and so many ideas, but not the structure i need to execute them. i can talk and talk for hours, but i can't write or draw or create on command. it's like my obsession is all for nothing. i want to share it and make something great, but i can't finish anything i start. that's why i like you, website. i don't have to finish anything on you because you'll always be a work in progress. if i get bored and give up halfway through a page, then it doesn't really matter because in the end it's still a new page. what an exciting thing, to have a new page.

i actually moved all of this from a tumblr blog to neocities. i like it better here!